Change

Sawasdee friends!

I have been having a long week getting my LAST semester in college over with before the internship part of my degree plan. So crazy to me that this is finally here...

Which got me thinking about change...and this blog may be kind of all over the place too so bear with me.

I grew up in a military family, so I am pretty resilient when it comes to changes in life. But I think what I love and hate about change is what it does within people. I love it for the strength and endurance and faith it brings out in people. When something changes in our lives, there is nothing better to do than find yourself all over again, come out learning something new and look back realizing what a champion you are when it's conquered. And not all changes are hard to overcome, some are the type of change that you've been wanting or working towards, but when it's finally here, it's still scary because even THAT has the ability to change.

For example, we've all been through this. We meet someone and at first they're a stranger. Completely unknown and fascinating. Whether it's a new friend or potential lover...they're different and you embrace the change. But you get comfortable with that person. Your walls go down. And they have the potential to hurt you. They have the potential to change.

And I think that's what I'm scared of. That is why I hate and love change all at the same time. I hate it because it's inevitable and sometimes beautiful and sometimes painful. I love it because it always ends up being a good thing until it becomes a bad thing. I love it because it teaches me something about myself that I would've never known before. I love it because I meet new people, go to new places, get to explore life on a whole new level.

I'm just mostly terrified of the unknown of that change brings. So many changes in my life and so much uncertainty. I guess I'm just scared to waste time on something or someone or somewhere and it just end up changing on me. But being comfortable is boring too.

So that leaves me with realizing that change is gonna happen whether I like it or not. I can't let it stop me from feeling what I feel or doing what I do. I just have to live life everyday as it comes, second by second, beat by powerful heart beat and hope there's a meaning to it all.

xoxo ciao,

Cheyenne Peluso